Well,

it has been a while, but I'm back. Things have been pretty hectic the past week and a half. I did my first teaching this past Sunday. I keep telling people that I didn't preach...I feel like I am a teacher, not a preacher. There is a big difference there in my mind...maybe even in reality too...

I went very well, so it must have been the Holy Spirit guiding me through and directing me to say certain things at certain times. Of course what topic would I teach on other than worship...more on that later.
People seemed to repond very well to it even though it was essentially a challenge to the average church goer's current concept of worship. I think people may begin to see things a little differently as a result of this opportunity. I just thank God that I didn't get in the way and screw things up too badly.

Being Christ to people at work is becoming more of a challenge than ever before. Especially when one co-worker seems to make it a point to get under other people's skin on a daily basis.
I'm really not feeling like I am doing a very good job of loving other people, but this process isn't complete yet and I have much to do in that regard.

Lord let me be your disciple to all people and at all times...

The new house is great...I am growing to like it more every day, although, I am still struggling with this concept of community out here in the middle of nowhere.

I'm still trying to die to my own desires on a daily basis. I find myself having those "I don't deserve this" feelings from time to time and I need to handle those better. It is a delicate balance, because if you are being mistreated you have to confront people at times or you're not doing the other person any favors. Being an enabler is just as bad as being self absorbed, so I am struggling to find that balance. I want to be dead to myself, but for the good of the body I have to confront things that need to be confronted and let go of the things that are merely my own pride being injured.

anyway...who said any of this would be easy?? I don't think anyone one did...but if they did I just might kick 'em in the teeth. I guess I need some anger management too...