Have you ever had a time where the Lord has revealed His will for you and then makes you wait to see it unfold. I know this is a time of pruning in mine and my family's life right now, but my flesh gets tired of waiting.
I also know that what he has for us around the bend is far better than what we could come up with on our own, but I am like a little kid that already knows what he is getting for Christmas and just can't wait for it to get here. On the other hand there could be Option B, that I have completely missed the boat and don't know as much about His will in my life as I thought...I am going to keep that one on hold.

I hope I don't have to wait as long as Noah had to wait to finally see rain, or for Abraham to finally have a son from Sarah

We are at point A right now in time. Sometimes He gives us the vision to see way out to point B well before we ever get there. The hard part is that He doesn't tell us what the path from point A to point B looks like.
Total dependance is what He is after and it is what I am willing to give Him. I am utterly lost without His Spirit guiding me and giving me the ability to minister in the areas that He has called me. I don't know where I am going next and I am getting to the place where I really like that.

My desire for authentic intimate worship continues to grow.
I want to KNOW Him... who He really is...not just who I think He is.
I want to reach my arms to heaven and cry out for my daddy.

Will my life ever be a picture of true and honest worship?
I react in my flesh so much that I am afraid that His Spirit is still
invisible to those watching me.
People are always watching...every move...every response...every
reaction...waitting for a mistake.
Break my will...whatever it takes...expose my disobedience...
prune me that I might bear much fruit.
Amen

Boy, people think I can come across as "anti" church...Tenney is right up there too!!!
He calls is like he sees it and we often don't like it because it is so true.
Another excerpt:

"We are too busy blessing and congratulating one another on our funny stories, shallow sermons, gifted solos, and splendid choir renditions. We are irritated by every interruption that might pull us away from our coffeepot conversations."

"Too many of us treat church as if it was a movie theater complete with padded seats and popcorn. We expect to sit in comfort, undisturbed and unperturbed as if we were the customers and He[God] was the Cosmic Performer."

I long for the time when the above statements are the exception rather than the rule.

I started reading Tommy Tenney's "God's Eye View" today. Some good stuff in there already. Things that are good to be reminded about from time to time.

"If you don't like the way things look 'down here,' then change your perspective. God has given you the key--worship can take you to a completely different understanding and lift you to a new plane of reality. Worship allows you to look from the seat of divine reality at what earth calls reality and say with certainty, 'That isn't really real. Everything of this earth is going to pass away. It's only temporary.'"

He says in the prologue:

"Remember you weren't born to be just a plumber, a pastor, or a teacher.
You were born to be a worshiper!"

A good reminder of our real vocation on this earth. It is to be a worshiper in spirit and truth. The implications that has on the way we live our lives here is paramount. We are just passing through...on the way through we are called to worship, which is the means by which the people around us will begin to see the One we worship.